have been like really gloomy and moody + introverted for the past few days..
well im starting to open up more now..

oh yes.. for some strange reasons..
when i hear the ballad version of Lao Shu Ai Da Mi, ill just start tearing..
wierd..
haha.. i think it just brings back very fond memories..
as you guys know, i hate chinese songs..
haha but for some unknown weird extraterrestrial reasons,
i still have it in my music folder..

well..
just to share with you guys
i always used to keep things to myself
my problems, my emotions.. whatever im going through, i just wouldnt want to share it with anyone.. even the one closest to my heart at that point of time..

bottling things up in me eventually turn into anger..
ill just throw a fit and get really moody all of a sudden..
but well..
im still not that open to sharing things with people..

my ipod is stuck to me every where i go..
i just need music and songs to keep me entertained..

my handphone doesnt beep as often as before..
and the bad thing is that
during work, ill just start to weep
and my colleagues start worrying about me..
sigh.. well i always give the excuse that it is stress..
stress that i cant find a school and such..
but well.. i lost something very close to my heart

im very materialistic
well im rather spoilt also la..
i need to get what i want if not i will buay song one..
oh well..

just so clouded..

heres my half an hour piece of work