I meditated on God's words
specifically Psalms 23

The bible says
1: The LORD is my shepherd; I shall not want.
2: He maketh me to lie down in green pastures: he leadeth me beside the still waters.
3: He restoreth my soul: he leadeth me in the paths of righteousness for his name's sake.
4: Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil: for thou art with me; thy rod and thy staff they comfort me.
5: Thou preparest a table before me in the presence of mine enemies: thou anointest my head with oil; my cup runneth over.
6: Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life: and I will dwell in the house of the LORD for ever.

this is one of my favourite verses in the bible.
it holds word of comfort, words of conviction and words of faith.
it would be nice if you were to support me with prayers too.

through this test, i would emerge out even stronger.
Live by faith and not by sight/feelings i will.

Melancholic + Phlegmatic = ME??

well..
dont worry about me too much
im just suffering from random depression
ill get over it

:)

may the force be with me and you

im totally off focus of my directions in life!
blahh..
don't like the feeling of this.
don't like the feeling of this.
don't like the feeling of this.

get'mai get'mai head in the game!!
FOCUS..FOCUS!!

NO SAD SONGS!
NO SCREAMO!
NO EMO!
NO SHUTTING OF MOUTH AND ACT STUCKED UP!

I NEED SOMEONE TO OPEN TOO!!!!

sigh..
GAHHHH!!
i don't know..
am i too overly worried over my studies.
or because of a girl?..
i promised myself that i will keep out of relationships till i am much responsible.
but what can i do to keep my mind of her!..
and no don't jump to speculations of who is in my mind!
LET IT OFF!! L-E-T I-T O-F-F! !

the exams have been over and it seems to me that within this period two weeks, time has been ticking away rather slowly.
its kinda hard to adapt to life when you know the world is changing.
everyday is a struggle not to be influence by the world.
for me personally, deep inside the silent heart of mine which speaks to noone, i find myself in loads of difficulties and confusion.

have you ever have this idea that one day you will wake up on bed to a different world where present is actually history?

thinking back on my childhood days,
im a silent loner and i've never had the guts to make friends.
im afraid to speak out and i have little confidence in myself.
slowly i learnt to adapt to the world and struggle my way through finding the identity of myself.

Personal Identity?
who am i?
just a normal kid living an average life?

Honestly, life sucks and it certainly feels heaven is a better home.
its just the struggles that makes me feel like giving up.
failed failed failed...
i think i failed myself..

studies?..relationships?..ambitions?..career?

it seemed a little too far fetched, but im starting to worry of things that i should not be worrying about..
im still finding acceptance of people in my life.
well..
if you read my prev. blog...
i don't really beleive in friends.
cause none of them were there for me.

though some show love,care,concearn.
none of them were constant.
is it bcos i dont open up much?.
well...i dont know..

i think im losing my friends.
just a random thought..
my handphone bills are overly high due of answering and msging people who are in need.
but i wonder if anybody will be there for me in need..to love me?

am i loved?

badddddd mooooooddddddyyyyy eemoootttiiioooonn.

wahaha..
had my maths and physics paper today
i had confidence at first that physics would be easy and maths would be fairly hard
but in the end..it was the total opposite

then after the papers..
me,liwei,henzy and huimin went to DBS to get her cash from her cashcheque
wohoo!
and after that we went to SWENSENS!
huimin's treat :P
felt guilty..cos i spoilt the earthquake icecream..

well..FOOD UPDATE
i had the baked rice chicken thingie


huimin had the sirloin
and liwei had the sambal fish thingie..LOL..HAWT!
and min went to order lots of food that they know they cant finish..


haha!..its a good thing i have a good appetite =)
and and and!..we had the earthquake!
8 scoops of yummy ice-cream on a big bowl!
just look at that

it was spoilt by me later on..when i added too much water to the dry ice and the cover exploded and flew onto the icecream causing all the dry ice water to splat on the icecream
(Dont try this at home, but u can try at your neighbour's house)

okie back to the study table to study for chem tmr
and im preparing to flunk POA!
wohooo!
thats a bad thing to enjoy

haha!
oh yeas!.. these are the few pics taken from my bdae!

Erm..my big'black chocolate bdae cake..



Erm.. Me cutting my cake..



OH YA!.. NICOLE GAVE ME THIS DELICIOUS PIE!
really happy over it as this is the first time i got a pie for my bdae!LOL!



ILL THROW U A BIG SUPRISE ON YOUR NEXT BDAE!..LOL..
wait..that aint called a suprise anymore since you know it..LOL
oh wellll

not forgetting!
the suprise that my beloved cell mates gave to me!
they were real sweet..
after service they came in with a cake and lots of goodies and gave me a birthday card
well.. to foolz! i treasure everytime spent with you guys!.. keep on rocking for God even though times may seems down. PERSERVERE FOR JESUS!

:)) :))