am i happy being who i am?
it hurts to get rejected in the face by "friends" in my face.

this sounded alot like one of my previous post that i had deleted long ago.
the reason why i delete my posts is that..i dont wana look and regret at history

i feel so much like a loser in society sometimes
i get looked down upon.
i get laughed, gimmicked and used as a tool.

hate people who suck up at me.
befriending me jus to get info on other people or use my "friendship" for another purpose
nicompoops. that means u r n idiot!

well.
its so tempting to find another girlfriend to love.
but thinking of the consequences and responsibilities..i dont think im up for it
girls been coming in and out of my life.
some have already rooted feelings deep inside my heart..
but guess i dont really want it..and its hard for me to uproot them..

blabbering nonsense again am i?
RAR!
gotta go..sch reopens tmr!
blog again tmr