am i happy being who i am?
it hurts to get rejected in the face by "friends" in my face.

this sounded alot like one of my previous post that i had deleted long ago.
the reason why i delete my posts is that..i dont wana look and regret at history

i feel so much like a loser in society sometimes
i get looked down upon.
i get laughed, gimmicked and used as a tool.

hate people who suck up at me.
befriending me jus to get info on other people or use my "friendship" for another purpose
nicompoops. that means u r n idiot!

well.
its so tempting to find another girlfriend to love.
but thinking of the consequences and responsibilities..i dont think im up for it
girls been coming in and out of my life.
some have already rooted feelings deep inside my heart..
but guess i dont really want it..and its hard for me to uproot them..

blabbering nonsense again am i?
RAR!
gotta go..sch reopens tmr!
blog again tmr

was really tired today..
school was rather hectic as i had to complete up all my homeworks which are dued..
i have so much to do but only have so much a little time
whenever my i come online and look at the list of friends in my contactt list in msn,
always wished that i have the time to chat with those that i have not been chatting to lately..
guessed i miss my social life..

things been giving me so much stress
i have given up on relationships..
guess im satisfied with my school friends and a lil of my church friends
i figured that my school friends are such nice person to be with..
honestly. they are the ones that constantly check up on me and asked me how im doing.
they are the steadyy and "on" type where like..when u just feel like going out with them for no rhyme or reason..they will willingly agree.
regardless wheter they are guys or gals. their close to you.
well..what can i say..after 5 yrs of seeing each other, we really bonded together tightly

also felt pretty guilty that..
i have not been serving in church faithfully lately..
i used to question on wheter im capable to manage the responsibilities i have accepted to take up.

hahas..mayb im writing all this now cos im jus so tired..[physically]
having a painful splitting headache..

oh wells..im gonna rest before things get worst :(

wohoo..
my computer is back in action..
!!..yups!..i reformated it today cos it had some trouble handling those intense 3d games..

and now..its the ultimate gaming machine!

its my o lvl yr..
but i need some time to leisure out too rite? =)

Current Games on my CPU: WC3 Frozen Throne,Muonline,Maple Story,CS1.6,The Thing and some other crappy games..

oh ya!..i forgot!..i left my packet of milkin the freezer again!!
and..(amanda liu will start saying..:"kadoinks!")
u must be wondering why on earth am i torturing the milk with subzero..
well..i wanted the milk to be cold..so to speed up the process..i placed it in the freezer..
simple as that..

ok lahs..fei hua xiao shuo..
gotta do my hw!..
nites!

hahas!
i used to think that im a complete loser ..
as i reflect.. i began to realised that alot of people noticed my presence on earth!
(To My Dear LiWei: You are a unique friend! And you are unique in everyway!)

hmm.. in school today..
quite a number of things happened..
i got called out by my class prefect together with another malay friend(kasbani) for having white bags!
hahas!.. i wanted to argue with the prefect like.......

[jem: eh!..teen companion where got say cannot carry white bag..what sia!?..my bag is beige lei!]

but i just kept my mouth shut la..dont wanna find any trouble with the DM too...
okok..so like there was this army of boys with white bags lined at the front of the flag poles..
then Mr Adam(DM) explained to us that there was a boy who was involved in a crime..and he was identified carrying a white bag..

and like.. i had to spend 3 whole subject period in the detention korner self-studying while the investigations were carried out..

ahhs..

okay lah.. that was rather bad..
but after sch ended, i had a fun time in remedial with steph and liwei cracking our heads on the maths question..
Mrs Elaine Ng was really good to us!..she patiently taught us and went through with us the questions one by one till we understood it!
I really respect her for that!

At least i have motivation to do well in my maths this yr!
Oh ya!..speaking of motivation..
I need to have more motivation to get up in the morning!.. [ errrrr...Pug Jelly?]
hahas..
yes!..i have been waking up late every morning!
despite setting the alarm 1 hr earlier,
.......
i usually wake up to the sound of the alarm of LOUD 98.7fm ,
look at the time on my radio cum alarm clock ,
turn off the alarm,
and slop back to my comfort of my bed!

okok..i must have a mindset!..
WAKE UP EARLY TMR!

x))

hahas. ok i was rather bored last night and picked out an original template from blogger.
decided to blog more. well... maybe ill use it as an online personal dairy..
wait.
aint that what a blog supposed to be
haha.
its now 6:38am in the morning.
waiting for daddy to wake up to fetch me to sch x))
i supposed to go school by myself. but ahhs..im just plain lazy.

okie!.will add more stuff to this bloggie and maybe change the template soon!

adios amigo!